I tried

Wtf?? I tried so so so hard. but it won't work. Let time and God choose the future for us. Hopefully I make the right decisions to get there. I know part of it was my fault but then, I felt bad for her and I totally forgot to keep that promise that I told him. I'm sorry once again but I tried. Im not even going to try nomore I'm really tired of this shit and I don't care anymore. We're both acting like dicks and people made me look bad, but I don't give a f*ck, haters. So this is my last apology and if it does not work then I'm done. I'm also sorry to this girl that trusted me so much but then I also did not keep that trust. I'm destroying 2 one year relationships, that is making me melt, sometimes when I think of all my mistakes I just want to decapitate myself. So if both of you are reading this I'm really sorry kay. I really tried. The Spring Concert was horrible because I tried talking to him but just ignored me. I don't care. I have lost alot of friends and trust this week, but I will recover from it. Again I'm sorry hope you both forgive me but if not, that's life. I'm out Peace and love..